For those of you who may still follow me after my long absence, I’m back and ready to get back to some new topics. My life is chaotic at best, my mind is completely off right now, and my heart is trying to heal. Not that any of this truly matters, but I guess splitting with your wife of 13 yrs will do these things.

I have been trying many things to keep my mind busy, but it is just too powerful. I can drink myself into oblivion, and I still only have one thought, why has my life gone on this path? I can surf the internet all day, and at the end of the day, the same thought occurs! It seems no matter what I do, I look backwards now and wonder what I did so wrong along the way to make my life what it is right now. We do reap what we sow, so I’m wondering, just how bad were the seeds that I planted?

But, as with true S.Taylor form, I don’t stay in these moods for long. I’ve been here for 2 months now, by FAR the longest I have ever been in this state of mind. I’m now getting back to looking forward, life is not so bleak. I’m not a horrible person, I’m a good person who has put himself in a bad situation. It will do me no good to beat myself up forever, because the present and future is all that matters. I cannot and would not, change the past. I will know the good things that are just around the corner.

The places I have been in the past two months and the things I’ve done, I’ll keep off the public blog but will give answers to those that ask. Let’s just say, anyone in their right mind would wonder if I was trying to commit suicide by default. And I will say, the thought of death or dying myself, has no more emotion for me than sitting down to have a beer. I seem to have reached a new plateau of thoughtlessness and I, at this time, genuinely could care less if I died tomorrow or at age 100. I have decided that I will no longer be bound by limits that I or anyone else have placed on me. I have never agreed with the conservative society with all it’s rules on how things should be and what you should do, I’m going to do what I want to do even more aggressively than what I used to.

I just got a job offer yesterday, it is in Wilmington, which is somewhere I do not want to be, but, it is work. It is sales and I will make the best of it. It’s been a long time since I’ve been in sales, I’ll have to brush up the skills a bit, but I believe I will be the once famous powerhouse salesman again in no time. ( How’d you like the arrogance there, see, I am getting better) LOL!!!

My biggest dilemma now is, where do I want to live? I have definitely ruled out  Augusta for many reasons: 1. No coastline to visit, 2: Parents in the area, 3: Dreary ass weather, 4: Back to number 2, parents have become VERY opinionated and negative and they have lived here all their life, I do not want to become like them AT ALL!!!

My preference will be Florida, somewhere. I like the Southern Florida area, but would prefer west coast, not east coast. It looks as though I will be locked up in NC at least for a little bit until I get my feet back on the ground. And get this, after months of searching for a decent job, I get one, and it just so happens to be selling life insurance and annuities, and immediately my Dad says turn it down because Obama is ruining that industry.  $600.00 per week to train for 7 weeks, I think I’ll take it for now, make the most of it and see where it goes. If they pay $600.00 per week to train, I’m sure the real commissions will be wonderfully surprising!

Bye for now, will write more later on my NEW life and all the adventures I know I will encounter!!

Just read the most interesting article, http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/health/8132857.stm . The Canadians have just figured out that if you are a negative person, just telling yourself to be happy through mantras will not make you happy, it will probably make you more depressed.

I’m 42, and for 24 of those years I have followed some of the best self help experts in the world. They all knew then that just talking to yourself will not do it. Talking is 7% of communication, tonality is 38%, the other 55% is physiology. To tell yourself that you are happy, grateful, superior, or whatever uplifting phrase you choose to use, must be said with conviction, belief that it is true, and followed by actions that support that new belief and emotion. I can tell myself that I am an astronaut. I can even say it with conviction and fake myself into believing it. However, the moment someone asks me to pilot the space shuttle, my world crumbles around me. Then I feel depressed, scared, embarrased, guilt, etc (all bad emotions), due to the fact I took no action to make my new belief a reality.

Personally, I dove into self help with no guidance other than “Unlimited Power” by Anthony Robbins. For me it was perfect, it read just like a text book,or instruction manual, if you will. That is how my brain works, very logical and methodical. Today, the self help world has gotten diluted with many people who have no idea what self help really is. It took me many years to realize just how to effectively make changes that last. My initial changes did not last. I wasn’t living the life to support my changes. And now too many self helpers think it is OK just to tell someone to tell themselves, “I am happy”.

Now, people looking to self help, should get guidance from someone who has been there, with lots of experience. I advise them to check out the person they are going to confide in. Just as the fact you would not trust your physiology to a quack doctor, definately don’t trust your brain to a quack life coach. They can cause considerably more pain than the physician, because they will create for you a life of complete turmoil, and it may become irreparable.

If you should still choose to do it on your own, remember this above all else, “You must walk the talk!”, if you don’t, you will not achieve your goal, no matter what the goal is.

As far as the Canadian researchers, sorry it took you so long to figure this out! I can give you some lessons if you like!

http://www.thepetitionsite.com/2/stop-dissection-of-live-animals

     My dog Baron is a great companion. He has been there for us many times as a friend and protector. Most of the protecting has been from bugs, but he does it without question. As a friend, he listens intently, knowing exactly what you are saying. He does not need doggy speak or shortened sentences.

     He came from nowhere, appearing one day on our lawn with mother and 7 other siblings. We knew the neighbor who was raising them and did not want any harm to come to them, so we took them in. This was Friday and we did not connect with the neighbor until Sunday afternoon. I cannot describe the chaos that ensued that weekend. Trying to housetrain 8 puppies so your house is not destroyed, is a chore in itself.

     We were given the choice of puppies as a sort of payment for protecting them. We chose the one who had been at our feet the whole time. He was very docile and seemed to understand the brevity of the situation and did not want to add to the chaos. Nevertheless, we named him Baron von Chaos.

     When I say he is intelligent, I mean brilliant. He house trained himself. He took a dump in the house, turned and smelled it, then proceeded to go outside. I told him that was the right thing to do if he had to go. He never used the bathroom in the house again. We aquired a bassett hound at one point, she came out of nowhere too. One day we could not find the hound, so I asked Baron where she was. He had never heard these words before, but took off through the woods. I followed and guess what we found, the bassett hound. He has through the years astounded us with his extreme intelligence and continues to do so in his old age.

     The protection he has given us, is mostly in his size. He weighs 140 now, and is almost 3 feet tall. The most prevalent comment we hear is, “That’s the biggest Shepherd I’ve ever seen!” My phrase is, “I wish I had a dime for every time I’ve heard that!”

     His muscles are extremely impressive. I never understood how people could get mauled by a single dog, then I saw him attack another dog, territorial dispute, and in two lunges the other dog was bleeding profusely and simply trying to get away. His jaws are so strong he literally crushes the interior of a golf ball without taking the skin off, all in one bite. I knew then to respect him and never treat him bad.

     With all that said, he is the most gentle dog I’ve ever had the pleasure to know. He can eat from a fork and his teeth will never touch the fork. When eating from your hand, he can sense your fingers, and if he touches one he immediately retracts until he knows you are ok. He has played with puppies and kittens and I have never heard a yelp from them even when playing rough. It’s as if he knows his size and strength and is very adept at knowing where his body is at all times.

     My best friends life is drawing to an end and it pains me greatly. I fear that his heart will outlast his body. Nothing is going to hurt me more than having to make that decision. I don’t know if I can.

If you’re a fan of the award-winning reality series Animal Precinct, then you’ve already seen the ASPCA Humane Law Enforcement’s Supervisory Special Investigator Annemarie Lucas in action. But did you know that you, too, can help crack down on animal cruelty in your own community? Read on for Officer Lucas’s take on making the world a safer place for animals:

1. Be aware. Without phone calls from the concerned citizens who report cruelty in their neighborhoods, we wouldn’t know about most instances of animal abuse. It all comes from the public, it all starts with YOU—that’s why it’s so important to keep your eyes and ears open. Get to know and look out for the animals in your neighborhood. By being aware, you’re more likely to notice, for example, that the dog next door who was once hefty has lost weight rapidly—a possible indicator of abuse.

2. Learn to recognize animal cruelty. Here are some signs and symptoms that we see in many of the cases we investigate:

• Tick or flea infestations. Such a condition, if left untreated by a veterinarian, can lead to an animal’s death.
• Wounds on the body.
• Patches of missing hair.
• Extremely thin, starving animals.
• Limping.
• An owner striking or otherwise physically abusing an animal.
• Dogs who are repeatedly left alone without food and water, often chained up in a yard.
• Dogs who have been hit by cars-or are showing any of the signs listed above-and have not been taken to a veterinarian.
• Dogs who are kept outside without shelter in extreme weather conditions.
• Animals who cower in fear or act aggressively when approached by their owners.

3. Know who to call to report animal cruelty. We’re lucky here at the ASPCA in New York City, because we have Humane Law Enforcement officers who have the power to investigate and arrest perpetrators of animal cruelty in the state of New York. But every state and even every town is different. In some areas, you may have to rely on the police department to investigate animal cruelty; in others, you may have to contact local animal control or another municipal agency. If you aren’t sure where to report cruelty visit our Report Animal Cruelty section.

4. Provide as much as information as possible when reporting animal cruelty. The details that you provide can go a long way toward assisting the investigating officer. It helps to write down the type of cruelty that you witnessed, who was involved, the date of the incident and where it took place.

5. Call or write your local law enforcement department and let them know that investigating animal cruelty should be a priority. Animal cruelty is a CRIME—and the police MUST investigate these crimes.

6. Know your state’s animal cruelty laws. These vary from state to state, and even from city to city. You can visit the ASPCA’s online database of more than 550 animal cruelty laws—and their penalties—in all 50 states.

7. Fight for the passage of strong anti-cruelty laws on federal, state and local levels by joining the ASPCA Advocacy Brigade. It’s frustrating when I have built a strong case against someone who has been arrested for cruelty to animals and the judge treats it like a simple violation. But with stronger laws, they’ll be more likely to receive tougher penalties. As an ASPCA Advocacy Brigade member, you’ll receive emails asking you to write letters encouraging your legislators to pass these laws-and you can send them directly from our website.

8. Set a good example for others. If you have pets, be sure to always show them the love and good care that they deserve. But it’s more than just food, water, and adequate shelter. If you think your animal is sick, bring him to the veterinarian. Be responsible and have your animals spayed or neutered. And I always give my own pets lots of hugs when I get home!

9. Talk to your kids about how to treat animals with kindness and respect. I regularly see children in homes where animal abuse has been reported. If a parent isn’t treating the family’s pets right, I tell kids that their dog or cat would really appreciate fresh water every day, or if they spent some time playing with them. If the animal has been left outside without shelter, I’ll say, ‘You have a nice house, and if you get cold, you can put a coat on. But your dog can’t do that. Don’t you think he’d like a nice warm place to go, too?’ I know of families who watch Animal Precinct together, and I think this can help children understand that animals are living creatures who have the ability to feel pain, joy and sadness. You can see these emotions on the faces of the animals on the show.

10. Support your local shelter or animal rescue organization. Before I even knew that police for animals existed, I was volunteering at an animal shelter. It’s a great way to make a difference. Some of our ASPCA volunteers foster animals who have been abused in their former homes, giving these dogs and cats the chance they deserve to have a good life. You can find a list of shelters and rescue groups in your area in our National Shelter Directory.

Credits for this post go to the ASPCA.org website. I simply copied and pasted the information. I hope we all find it useful.

Doctor: Lack of medical helicopter cost actress – MSN Movies News.

     I was just sitting her looking through the news and I am saddened by an unexpected death of someone like Natasha Richardson. She was reported to be a good person and very giving.

     Then you have the doctors, emergency personnel and the ski instructor all trying to save their own ass and say “I did everything I could, it wasn’t my fault.” Of course the ski instructor immediately claims she rushed to the scene and vehemently urged Mrs. Richardson to go the hospital to no avail. (Obviously not her fault). Then comes the emergency personnel, what could they do, spend a half hour diagnosing that she had a problem (I believe that was already determined), then proceeded to take her to a hospital that had no head trauma specialty in their repertoire. So now we will spend another two hours to get her to the correct hospital. (Couldn’t possibly be their fault)

     Then come the beloved doctors, the fought diligently and fevershly, but to no avail. (Definately not their fault)

     Upon doing some research on epideral hematomas, I found this:

Mortality/Morbidity

Mortality rate associated with epidural hematoma has been estimated to be 5-50%.

• The level of consciousness prior to surgery has been correlated with mortality rate: 0% for awake patients, 9% for obtunded patients, and 20% for comatose patients.
• Bilateral intracranial epidural hematoma has a mortality rate of 15-20%.
• Posterior fossa epidural hematoma has a mortality rate of 26%.

As you can see, the highest mortality rate is the posterior fossa at 26%, but even a patient who is comatose (Natasha), mortality is at 20%. So now I ask you, this doctor, Montreal’s top head trauma doctor, who by the way, says “It’s impossible for me to comment specifically about her case, but what I could say is … “, is really going to try to blame this on a lack of a trauma helicopter???

     I think it is appalling that all these professionals could not stop something that at best has a 26% mortality rate, not to mention with all their rhetoric, she was injured on Monday and did not die until Wednesday, and you want to say 4 hours determined her life. I’m no neurosurgeon, but it seems the operation, although risky is still a fairly simple one. That is only my opinion. Quit trying to put the blame somewhere else and tell these people to take responsibility. Or better yet, realize, when it is your time, nothing will stop it from coming.